You are not

Supposed to be a savior.

This does not fall on you.
I know you think it does, but it doesn't.

I don't know how to make you see,
You're doing the same things I did, I am.

"I know that I've got issues,
But you're pretty messed up too.
Either way, I've found out,
I'm nothing without you." :)

I don't know

What I would have done without you.
And my three dark-haired angels.

I have known you for such a short time.
By accident, really.
You made me realize things I never would have realized on my own.
And for that, I am so grateful.
So grateful.

Others tried to no avail.
I appreciate their effort more than they know, but what worked was you.
Your insight came from experience.
You've been through so much.
You saw the big picture, not the little ones making it up.
You made me see things from a different perspective.

You call me intelligent, resilient, knowledgeable, attractive, driven.
You know WHY I am as I am...and you embrace it, respect it.
You see that I'm not close-minded, I just know exactly what I believe.
Because I've seen enough to know what does not matter.

You say I comprehend things others never will.
I don't know.
But I sure hope so.

You appealed to the people-loving side of me.
And you understand where I come from, what makes me tick.
I make sacrifices.
I am not centered around myself.
Maybe I make too many sacrifices, but sacrifices...that's okay.
You understand; get it.

I'm not an idiot.
I'm not doing the things I find fundamental in the wrong way.
Maybe there are some things I am doing wrong, I get that. I'm working on it.
But I still know how I am.
And in that way, I'm still the person I knew when I was ten.

I'm changing little things, not who I am.
You are the first one to ever truly suggest that.
Thanks for sparking the fire.
I'm gonna kindle it the best way I know how.

Its called spiritual demons...

And yes, I believe in them.
I believe they are all around us.
Call me crazy.

Inside they open & break & bend.
And sometimes they grow.

They break out.
Shackles won't chain this now.
Spinning around.
Fire & flame.
...Why?

Red hands, red feet.

Splinters. Rocks. Darkness.
I can't run any faster!

I trusted you.

Confusion,
Frustration,
Lack of words,
Betrayal.

Heaven knows I love you, sweet baby lamb.
Your pink mischief just has me wrapped around your little fingers.
I'm yours.

Dizzy, dizzy, dizzy, dizzy.

Sorry, but I have to draw the line.
Have to draw that line.
Enough.

Now if you can wait til I get there...
Just wait.
Please.

Red hands, red feet.

Sometimes that only makes it worse.

Flesh, blood, life.
Once you were there, now you are here -> <3

Labored.
Fast.
Hell walks.
Hell RUNS.

I'd give my life for yours.

Red hands, red feet.

Heart on my sleeve.

How come every step you take leaves blood on the floor behind you?

Where to go, where to go?...

Come back.
Here.
Now.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Where have you gone?
Where have I gone?

Cross in hand, hand on my heart.

Red hands, red feet.

I'm gonna lay down right next to you.

Fruit loops & geometry. What a combo.

I need you here tonight...
Even though I don't know what it'd do.
I just want to know you're here.

"If you can just wait til I get home,
I swear we can make this last."...

Red hands, red feet.

Beneath the surface

So much hides.
Eyes shift sideways,
Hands nervously fidget.
You're not the only one, girl.

The weight of the world is not your burden alone.
Look around; there are hands reaching out
So that your burden may be lessened.

Don't worry,
There's nothing you can say or do,
Nothing that can make support run.
It's always gonna be here...believe it.
I won't leave you.
Promise.

Inside you, there's strength you don't even know you have.
A tiny spark...
will light a candle...
Which will turn into a flame...
That will light a forest fire.
A fire that destroys...
So that everything can be made new.

I'm learning so much from you.