2.17.05

I wrote this for you.
We love you.
<3 Kinny

Lately

All I've wanted to do is sing.

I show up to Anatomy lab sometimes with drum sticks still in hand,
Make random percussive noises in the walkways,
Jam with friends for hours on end,
Yes, I even dance in my room.

Something about music is so intrinsic to my soul.
It's like my drug.
Especially when I sing to God.

Perform once and the hunger comes back.
Stronger, stronger!
Until every part of me just...releases.

So glorifying, so catalytic.
Freeing.

Come away with me.

Cheeeeeeeze!

I miss my puppy.

Can't wait to have that house full of cats, dogs, and kids that I've always dreamt of.

And I want to sing. Somewhere. With a band. Or whatever. If anyone at the Burg is game, let's do it.

Today is a random day, did ya get that? ;)

Don't feel so alone

People love you.
Don't mind those who don't.

It's not your fault.

Sometimes I wish I could take it all away,
but nothing seems to help.

Come curl up in warmth;
you can tell me.

I just hate seeing you like this.

Names, names, names

So many of you know I love, love, LOVE names.

I have kept a running list of names for my future children since I was 12. No joke.
(Isabella was my top girl name, that ended up being used on my lovely poochie, Zoie Isabella).

ANYWAY,

New year, new list.
Or at least a revised one.

Cassandra
Lorelei
Lyla Kate
Coraline
Everley nickname Eve
Vera

Elias
Leo
Henry
Oliver
Jonah/Jonas
Isaiah
Rowan

And if I ever adopted from Africa and had a child who could pull it off, I'd have either a Kasinda or Malachi :)

Word.

Believe in callings

They are real.

Not long ago, I would have laughed at anyone who said certain people were made to do certain things, that they were called by God.

No longer; I believe.

I am here to teach. To impACT lives. To help & mother in any way that I can. To work through health care, through missions, through music.

Maybe at some point do something out of the ordinary.
Minister in a third-world country.
Adopt an African child.
Sing in a traveling band.
You never know.

By using my voice,
my heart,
my hands.

Of course I have fear.
Of course sometimes I don't think I am good enough.
Of course sometimes I think it's too far-fetched.
Unattainable.
Too expensive, too lengthy.
I do know the limits, of course. I've got my head on straight.

But don't we all wish we could fly?

Here's a secret:
We all have crazy dreams.
The people that have the courage to follow them are the ones that everyone else envies.

Let's get lost

I don't care where.

Although someplace warm would be nice.
Let's be missionaries in Africa,
Or South America...
Or Ireland :)

Relinquish your belongings, as Jesus once spoke of.

Where has our sense of adventure gone? I never want to lose it.

Grab your suitcase.

(BTW, I am a brand new Religion Major. Yee!)