I spent the morning with some of my favorite people ever.
We can talk for hours, share laughs, and share life.
They are in their fifties. And truth be told, I've never felt more comfortable around people as I have with them.
I have always related to people who are older than me better than those my own age.
Luckily, this is true for the majority of my good friends as well.
I also went shopping today with a friend that is recently engaged.
I find it much easier to talk about what kitchen tools to buy & what different family members are in need of this year & cooking than talking about normal college things.
I don't know why...but it's always been that way. It's odd knowing that you don't 'fit', that you were meant to be more than what you are now. Thankfully, when I am home at least, I am reminded that I am not alone. And it feels SO GOOD. I'm not alone. My God truly is an amazing God to put the people in my life that He does.
"College is just a stepping stone", my older friends say.
"It will end soon."
"People will leave college and have this sudden period of maturing..."
Life will never be butterflies and rainbows; its never going to be exactly as I dreamed and I understand that, but I will find a place where I feel more at home. More like I belong there.
I am grateful for all that God is given me. But I have always, always felt Him calling me to have a family & to serve both in my community and throughout the world.
An elderly long-term substitute teacher once smiled at me in high school. He leaned in close to me, takes a deep breath, and whispers "I know a secret. You are going to be a wonderful wife & mother. It's who you are. I feel it." I had known this man only a few weeks, and I'm positive he had no idea how much I wanted a family someday.
I never forgot that moment. Thanks, Paul.
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